Madamigella
Clara Wieck, Age 9, Plays Gewandhaus
Nov.8,l830
Leipzig,Germany
I feel the music in my fingers,
taste it in my mouth like marzipan.
I drink the notes
like milk and they make
my whole body strong. For papa
I play and play. I am his
best pupil.
And after I play,
I like the long roses
almost as tall as me
and tea with papa and his
friends. Papa lifts me
up, up until I feel heat
from the lamps and light so fine
I am golden all over. I am pink,
and my silk dress so heavy
with music and smiles and papa's
heart is happy as the roses
in my arms.
I played for Paganini
on a terrible piano,
all black keys, Hummel's
Concerto in G. He said
I had a future in music
because I played with feeling.
I practice three hours a day
and distinguish keys by ear.
Father says I have the fingers.
If I get Ten Gold Louis
Dusseldorf
August 27, l854
Clara,
I think of you going to the concert
hall like a priestess to the altar.
I hope you did not overtire
yourself with certain studies
in C Sharp minor. Hatels
has accepted my Variations
but will pay only a small fee.
Business people really know
no delicacy in money matters.
I have now completed my library
of books. I have bought Aeschylus'
Seven Tragedies and a volume
of Plutarch's Lives. I shall
soon not know what else to buy.
Already I have Shakespeare's
and Schumann's Complete Works,
Goethe's Poems, Hoffmann.
If I get ten gold louis,
I shall have a hard struggle
staying away from the bookshops.
Will you be away
much longer?
I have a terrible longing
to see you again, dearest lady.
Hours of Zinc and Lead
Feb. l3, l86l
Johannes,
I fear the tour
to Belgium will be tedious;
virgin territory, my music
unknown,but I have seven children
dependent on me. How can I tell
how long my life will be?
Am I to grind it in perpetual worry
for my daily bread?
I played the palace
and what did I get? Nothing
but applause until the princess
sent in secret 8 guineas.
Then I played three court
concerts without halfpenny more.
The old princess sent me a bracelet,
a hideous one discarded long ago.
I could not rush to the sellers
fast enough only to find it filled
with lead and zinc...like my heart
at that moment.
If only we could live once
more in the same town. I might
recover peace and good cheer
if I lived with a dear friend.